Friday, April 6, 2012
Fed up now
Smudge is showing no sign of beating the induction. My bump is still very high, I've not had any show, even my BH have calmed down. I am getting back ache but only towards the end of the day so its simply being tired and heavy, not early labour. I'm not sleeping very well either which isn't helping my mood at all. I'm very very glad that Mark is home now (its his week off, then his pat leave) because it means I don't have to occupy the boys all by my self... I've not been in the right frame of mind to have much fun with them the last few days.
That said, I have tried to keep them amused. Jack's off nursery for the Easter hols. Mon we went to Katies birthday, Tue Nana came over and we took them to Brewsters. Wed was a quiet one, but on Thu Jack had a play-date with best friend Rory. Today they've played with Daddy and his Lego sets while I've had a lie in and a long bath (thank you Hubby).
I've enjoyed being pregnant through the 2nd half (1st half was less fun) and I'll miss my belly bump... But I want my baby now. I'm uncomfortable, tired, grumpy, sick of not being able to move around properly, and annoyed that its going to come to an induction. For some reason its taken some fun away by knowing exactly when I'm going to hosp, even though in every other aspect of my life I like organisation. I've wanted this baby to come slightly early on their own just like Jack & Tom but I just can't see it happening.
Tried to convince hubby to go out tonight (its the Alex 10th anniversary) so I can mope by myself and do things he won't like to induce labour, but I think he's on to me coz he isn't going.
I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself though. Went on the forum to have a moan but everone else in April Mummies is doing far worse than me, with genuine problems and worries, so I felt stupid n selfish in comparison and came on to my blog to whine instead :)